After we separated, there was so many things which I realized that I wanted to do.. with you.
But because this involved money, and we always claimed to want to save money, so we always ended up staying at home. Losing out on all these experiences is indeed one of the regrets that I had.

There are just some things which I just wanted to do but realized that it could have been a burst bubble if it failed.

"I so wanted to fly over to where you are to find you."

Having the need to want to talk to you, but it probably is just a state of mind that caused me to not do anything because of being too hurt. If it meant that the relationship failed because of this, I guess I possibly deserved it.

Over-commitment. This is the word which was said to me when I described my thoughts. Did I really over-commit thinking that how much commitment you put into a relationship would reciprocate some form of expectation and rewards? Was I just nonchalant about some things in life and pretend to not think it is something which I should think about?

Life is just so blurry, and so many things to explore. If what he told me was true, I really wonder how would people view me. What would life become in future?